drugs fucked up my life....

in 6th grade, a few friends introduced me to ciggarettes.

i liked them, i liked them alot. by the time i hit 7th and 8th grades, the rich kids at my middle school introduced me to marijuana… i liked that evern more.

in 9th grade, this girl introduced me to Oxy, i loved it..

in 10th grade, this girl introduced me to coke, and i fell in love.

between 6th grade and 11th grade, i was doing drugs on the regular. right before class, smoked weed. get coked up before football games. i honestly can’t believe i’m not dead. that was a hard part of my life, my dad was never around, my stepmom treated me like shit.. my grandparents moved.. and shortly after my wonerful grandfather and great grandmother passed. i had no other way to cope, my brother moved to North Carolina before i did, and my dad worked 20 hours a day. i spent days, in my familys second house.. alone, without food for most of them, or air conditioning. i had no friends close by, no family in the state. drugs was all i knew, and i loved doing it. it got to the point were i’d do anything for a high, i’d beat kids up for mney, i’d sell/grow my own shit.. i even robbed neighbors. the saddest point in my life.

a week ago, i talked to my grandmother about all this. it tore her up inside. i told her i still smoked, and i popped pills every so often. then, that same fucking night, on Nat. Geo, a documentary on Straight Edge kids came on. i always laughed at these kids, especialy because the scene kids kind of fucked up the whole true meaning of beig straight edge. after watching it with her, she looks at me and says, “those are the kind of people i can see you around”. i’ve always like Minor Threat and Have Heart, but ive never dabbled with the idea of being straight edge. but honestly, it’s definatly going to be one of the best decisions i’ll ever make in my life. so to all my followers on here, October 12, 2009 is the begining of the new me. im not going to force my beiefs down your throat, but today is th day i claim edge. this is a lifelong commitment that i’m going to follow.