i'd like to take the time out

to apologize to anyone i've ever done wrong.

ex's, my dudes in NJ/NC, i'm sorry.. for real

i've done some fucked up shit in my short 20 years of living, but honestly i don't regret anything i've done.. as fucked up as that may sound. i'm taking it all in as a huge learning experience for me; something i had to expeience in order to grow up a bit. to the girls that i have played lately, yeah you know who you guys are, i want to say i'm really sorry and mean that so sincerely and truthfully. NONE of you guys deserved this, out of all the girls i dated, you guys treated me right. each of you offered an amazing insight on life to me that i will ALWAYS treasure. so to those ladies, i'm sorry. i would love to still have you guys in my life at some point or one point in life, but trust me.. i understand if you dont.

and to my boys, who i definatly seem to underappreciate and take for granted, i wanna apologize as well. i met some real cool as dudes lately, and you all have been nothing but great to me. picking me up when i couldn't score my peeps car, paying for shit when i didn't have enough, taking me from A to B without hesitation, and the free weed haha. i'm sorry dudes, and i truly mean this. right now, theres no way for me to repay you guys, or truley show my appreciation for all of you. just know that theres changes being made, and it's not gonna be easy.. but damn it's worth a try.

the past 2-3 weeks has been a hellafied learning experience for me. i always think about the one person who would always be there for me, and be able to bring me up when i'm down, my grandfather. i thought about how disapointed he'd be in me, but also how happy he'd be if i just go back to the normal me. it's like, one small mistake turned into a huge nightmare, all because i let previous experiences influence my decisions. i've made more mistakes in my social life this past month than i have in.. ever

i love you all, and hope you take this.. letter as seriously as i am.

MUCHlove,
edison.